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My name is Maribel. I have two wonderful children and a strong faith. I am also a survivor of depression. I want to share my stories and feelings with everyone in the hopes of removing some of the stigma associated with this disease. You are not weak, you are not crazy. It is not a feeling that you can just wish would go away; it is a struggle from day to day. Some days are good, some days are great, other times everything around you seems bleak. The good news is that there is hope, and depression can be controlled. Thank you for visiting my page. I hope you will enjoy reading my thoughts. At times you will find my posts to be educational and uplifting. Other times I am sure they will be raw and personal. My hope is that you will travel this road with me as we continue to explore what is in store for us in this journey called life.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

The Sun Will Come Out, Tomorrow

The last couple of days have been a prime example of why I would NOT wish depression on even my worst enemy.   The feelings of contentment and joy that have been a part of my life for the past few weeks have given way to sadness and despair. Still wearing a smile on my face, I manage to get up and go to work and give it my all. I’ve managed to come home and carry out my household duties. My kids ask me what’s wrong and get frustrated when I answer, “Nothing. I’ll be fine.”

The truth is that while it could be worse, I am dealing with some issues that have me feeling down. Some of them are out of my control, others are self-imposed.  Thank God prayer and lots of tears have kept me from falling apart altogether. Last night I read a passage in the Bible that renewed my hope: “Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:6-7)

Depression has a way of making us worry unnecessarily about things that are beyond our control. The “why” questions and the “what if’s”. The uncertainties of life. Feeling sad but not really being able to pin down a specific reason as to why. Wanting to have someone hold you in their arms, but looking around at an empty house.

I realize that I have much to be thankful for. I am not discounting that. I do appreciate my friends and those who call, text or give me a loving hug. But that is the twisted reality of this disease – feeling unhappy despite all of the good things going on in your life.

I know this fleeting storm will pass. As Annie used to say, “The sun will come out, tomorrow.” In the meantime, I will just have to put up with the rain.


  1. Great post!! There's not alot for me to say. I went thru the same thing when i was separated from my ex. God was there for me also and my dependence on Him carried me through. It was five years of touch and go and up and down, miserable and lonely one day and full of joy the next. God will stay with you and give you the peace and comfort you need for the moment, even if it is nothing but a good cry, which is usually followed by peace and a good sleep!! Keep trusting and having faith in God and your blessings will come. Your scripture is a great help: “Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:6-7).....Execellant!! GOD BLESS YOU!!!

  2. You have such a good insight into the way depression affects you and you are able to see it as separate to you. That's amazing. You have that figured and you know that it will pass. There is light at the end of the tunnel, but in the mean time living in a tunnel isn't that great! Keep fighting, you are strong. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

  3. Thank you Bill. Your comments are always uplifting & it is refreshing to hear from someone with such a strong faith. You are contagious! (I mean that in a good sort of way. haha!)

  4. Mehdi,thank you for your comment. I have read your blog which I also enjoy. It's good to get a different perspective. In the end we will be ok, but you are right, it's the "living in a tunnel" in the meantime that isn't much fun. God bless!